@autoimmunetribe is giving us both #motivationmondays and #transformationtuesday vibes. I chose this post because ever since the middle of January I’ve been taking steps to get back to being the person I know I can be. I am also trying to reclaim what lupus has taken and accept the positive changes it has brought about, primarily how I treat and take care of myself.
I was addicted to white chocolate-caramel lattes.
I stayed up too late.
I ate too much sugar.
I sacrificed my own needs way too often.
I had zero boundaries.
I dated all the wrong men.
I was in denial about my autoimmune disease.
I felt invincible until I got slapped in the face with a flare up.
I lied just to make other people happy.
And I had ZERO self care routine.
Have you ever feel this way before?
I had strayed so far away from my true nature, that I felt LOST. I felt STUCK. I remember staring at myself in the mirror literally ripping myself apart with negative self talk and then lying on the ground and having a panic attack. .
In those moments, I didn’t see any way out.
I was completely burnt out, exhausted, hurting, and out of energy. .
But, in a moment of hope, I decided there had to be a different solution.
As someone who always looked for the “quick fix” (with no success) this time NEEDED to be different. So I committed to CHANGE at the deepest level.
Some days felt like amazing progress and other days felt like major set backs. But, I saw my body AND mind slowly shifting and I was completely immersed in the journey because I never wanted to feel that shitty again.
Do you know that feeling? .
I understand, because I’ve been there.
Integrating simple rituals and small changes into my life have amounted to a complete 180 and a complete upheaval of who I used to be and a rebirth into someone who I actually LIKE. .
Someone who I respect.
Someone who knows herself.
Someone who is aligned on her life path.
Someone who I love (and that has been the hardest).
This happened because I decided to START creating change.
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